| Sacorra Nichele Stewart,
You know its funny, I was always highly independent as a child and still am. I never needed anyone else to help me...for anything and I never really expected anyone to help me anyway. I was happy with what I was given in a sense..specifically the house I was living in. Basically the point of this is post to the world and whoever may come on to your xanga how much i love you. best friends doesnt even come close to describing what you and I hold within our relationship.
Damn corra, we promised eachother this move wouldnt change ANYTHING. we both have to admit it has. but i guess we can both grow from this situation. I have so many mixed emotions right now that I am having trouble putting it all in this entry... haha remember when you got in trouble and we wrote eachother letters and had our "secret little spot" and the many days of me just waking up and walking over so we could do nothing all day, together? yeah..those were the days...but those days are over with. we both have to move on, despite the challenge that it will be and it has been. i dont even know if im making sense right about now but i dont even care. i want you to know whats going on inside of my head right now and here it is. i miss us being BEST fucking friends with nothing between us. I cant wait until you can drive...or I can drive, whoever can first :) lol but when we can, you know we are never going to be seperated. well i kno youve been going through a lot lately and I thought you would need this. a little letter letting you know that hell yeah im the same chelsea leigh paskman that you fell in love with in 6th grade (since things didnt really work out in 5th lol) and i am going to stay the chelsea leigh paskman that you fell inlove with. haha it looks like im your lez lover, hell naw poeple just best fucking friends lol i hope this cheered you up cuz it cheered me up. sometimes i think i have to stay strong for everyone else like my mom and even you. so im going to do that, i dont like letting other people down and i dont want to let you down. you know.. i was really shocked when you told me waht you said to your mom, its all good though because you had the right to say it at that moment i guess haha. but i just wanna thank you for being who you are. never change. and if you do, no matter WHAT i will ALWAYS be here for you. i love you sacorra, best friends until the very end. you my girl
<3 ya sis chel
ps: this doesnt even say 1/2 the shit i was thinking tonight. just know you will always be able to trust me, i will never judge you, i think your the most beautiful creature on this earth, you are intelligent, honest, and your you. never let anyone bring you down aight sis? other wise i will have to fuck them up :] haha you know you know
pss: remember when you and I use to sit in the street eating bbq chips and drinking sodas listenign to your radio waiting for jesse to come home? haha those were the best nights. that or peeing and whiping with our socks and throwing them away...sacorra i really miss living by you and i miss jesse. i thougth you should know..im sure you do too, im gonna stop before i start crying again. <-- the first time i had something in my eye ;) haha |
